coming of age

Emma of 83rd Street

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Title:  Emma of 83rd Street

Author: Audrey Bellezza and Emily Harding

Year: 2023

Genre: romance

Queer shit: a bisexual in passing

Vibe Check: Modern day Manhattan retelling of Jane Austen’s Emma, cute, spicy, empowering.

Pile of Opinions: This one is a modern retelling of Jane Austen’s Emma in modern day Manhattan. The classic age gap between the lead and her love interest (he remembers her being born, etc.) is a weird trope for me but at least the characters in this book directly address it (“suddenly she’s a woman and not a little girl, when did that happen” type of energy) so I’ll allow it. They grew up together and he is a total ass to her. I’m grateful she does humble him! A lot of times once love is confessed it just goes unaddressed so I’m glad the author makes sure to show that Emma is infinitely smarter than Knightley no matter how much older he is or how much more mature he thinks he is. He’s kind of a tool. He holds her to a higher standard than anyone else and is so mean about her humanness. He better spend his life trying to earn her attention haha  I know he is like weird protective big brother energy until he realizes he loves her but also that’s sort of toxic and he’s a mean big brother who bullies her several times because he’s immature and has zero emotional regulation apparently. Overall I love this retelling! It does get spicy (heyo!)! This is great for Austen fans, romance genre readers, and anyone looking for a story of a young woman finally seeing she is everything she needs to be and has accomplished great things and only needs to keep doing what she knows is best for her.

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Dungeons and Drama

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Title: Dungeons and Drama

Author: Kristy Boyce

Year: 2024

Genre: YA fiction, YA romance, Dungeons and Dragons, Musical Theater,

Queer shit: mlm side relationship, musical theater, D&D

Vibe Check: Musical theater fan fake dates a D&D fan, not only do they enjoy fake flirting but they find their interests overlap in beautiful and magical ways

Pile of Opinions: Soooo cute!!! Adding this to the list of books I wish I’d had as a teenager along with everything Elise Bryant, Michelle Quach, and Anna-Marie McLemore ever write. I’m looking forward to going back and reading the author’s other books. I love all the characters and everything felt so real and believable and raw in the way only good YA writing can feel. This book had me laughing out loud and getting second hand butterflies and I am here for it. A musical theater fanatic gets grounded and her “punishment” is working at her dad’s gaming store for 8 weeks. She is trying to revive the canceled spring play but gets sucked into the world of D&D. What starts as part of her cover fake dating Nathan so her douchey ex boyfriend stops pitying her and so Nathan’s crush will get jealous and finally give him the time of day quickly turns into an “is this real or just part of the act” as the two start to fall for each other. This felt every bit the teenage dream of exploring the world beyond what is right in front of you and finding friends in unlikely and unexpected places. This book is for Dungeons and Dragons fanatics, musical theater enthusiasts, and readers of sweet romance and young love. I am definitely buying the physical copy when it comes out January, 2024, and will be on the lookout for the author’s other books as well. Let me know if you’ve read this and what you thought in the comments!

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The Boy You Always Wanted

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Title: The Boy You Always Wanted 

Author: Michelle Quach

Year: 2023

Genre: YA fiction, YA romance, coming of age, Asian-American experience, Family dynamics, multi-generational

Queer shit: I feel like some was mentioned in passing but nothing significant

Vibe Check: Sweet family with some cycles to break, Eldest daughter attempts to do everything because she loves her family, finding your people

Pile of Opinions: Books about complex family dynamics will always get me, especially cross-generational. I couldn’t tell you if I loved the falling in love pieces of this or the family pieces more but they were all beautiful. Francine’s grandpa is in his final months of life and is discouraged because there is no male heir. Though it is modern day and this isn’t as important as it once was, Francine can see it’s important to her A Gung (grandpa). She decides to try to talk her schoolmate into an old tradition of being a stand-in heir to uplift her A Gungs spirits so he can be at peace for the end of his life. This story explores so many relationships and the lengths we will go to for those we care about. Michelle Quach writes YA feminism in a way that just heals my inner teenager and I can’t get enough. I appreciate authors who use their platform to show the reader a look into their family values and cultural background through their stories. Also showing other family values of similar backgrounds, I love hearing their stories. Learning through stories is one of my favorite ways to learn. Francine’s family was both so relatable as I also grew up in a family where we care for and cater to our elderly and majority women are doing the care tasks. Francine works to convince her classmate, Ollie, to be the stand-in heir as his family has known hers for many years and she hopes he will understand the weight of this ask. And also she so doesn’t have a crush on him anymore and this has nothing to do with that. Francine and Ollie are both Asian-American but they show us how different their family’s treat that. Francine has the classic eldest daughter syndrome of doing everything for everyone and Ollie is mostly just trying to get through his days. Francine’s family is entwined in each others’ lives, especially once her grandparents moved in, and Ollie’s family is mostly his dog as his parents work long hours. Watching these two navigate family expectations, as well as high school, shows the depth of their characters and the burdens and priorities teenagers take on from their parents. This was a very heartfelt sweet read. Let me know if you’ve read it and what you thought in the comments. Thank you Michelle for teaching us through stories.

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City of girls

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Book Review (more just a pile of my personal opinions from my personal experiences)

Title: City of Girls

Author: Elizabeth Gilbert

Year: 2019

Genre: Fiction, female relationships, building a life, responsibility (idk, these aren’t genres)

Queer shit: One side gay character, a threesome, lesbians, theater (IYKYK)

Vibe Check: Young woman decides to go against the plan her family had for her life and moves to her Aunt’s theater in NYC after dropping out of college in 1940

Pile of Opinions: This book as a whole piece was confusing to me as it felt like the first 250 pages were one book and the last couple hundred were a second book. I enjoyed both books but they didn’t feel cohesive. I felt like the first part felt like what I expected the book to be about and I loved it and enjoyed it. It was very coming of age, finding your purpose outside your parents’ expectations, understanding the value you already have that you can contribute to a community, fitting in without losing yourself. I loved the friendships and lessons learned and observations. I enjoyed the second part of the book, living through the war and building an independent life as an adult in NYC. I loved the friendships in this book and enjoyed seeing how they change over decades. This book was told from the perspective of the lead woman looking back on her life and telling her stories as an old woman. Seeing friendships over a lifetime and how someone can be our everything for a time and out of our life another time and that doesn’t make the relationship any less valid or important. I read this book in a few days and I feel like perhaps I would have enjoyed it more if I had read it over a longer period of time. Some shows aren’t meant to be binged in a single weekend and some books aren’t either. I really enjoyed this over all once I accepted it as more than the 250 I expected it to be and enjoyed it for the collection of stories that it was. I love a good found family and there should be more books about the beautiful chaos of a theater community.

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Juliet Takes a Breath

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Book Review (more just a pile of my personal opinions from my personal experiences)

Title: Juliet Takes a Breath

Author: Gabby Rivera 

Year: 2016

Genre: YA fiction, personal growth, coming of age, coming out/queer

Queer shit: Lead (female) is gay, has a girlfriend, and is trying to come out to her family. Lots of support queer characters, lesbians, poly.  

Vibe Check: jumping into the deep end before you are ready and being fine

Pile of Opinions: LOVED THIS BOOK. I needed more of this book the second I finished. Juliet is a lesbian about to go on summer break during her college years in 2003. She reads a book by a lesbian feminist in Portland Oregon who opens Juliet’s eyes to a world of queerness and body positivity that is new for her. She lands an internship with the author, decides to come out to her parents, and heads off to Portland for the summer. This book was empowering and human and made me want to up and go somewhere new and meet new people. This book covers the complexities of being gay in the early 2000’s, family dynamics and varying responses to queerness, intersectionality, white privilege, polyamory, and meeting your heroes only to find out they are human. This book is one I will reread soon and suggest to anyone who will listen (already sent a copy to someone so they’ll read it and we can talk about it). This book felt so real and personal and human and i just loved how Juliet builds relationships with the people she meets, how the characters love and make mistakes, and how the author addresses body image and the intersectionality of Juliet being a queer woman of color. The author portrays whiteness in a way that is both disappointing and incredibly accurate. Rivera uses a character to address white fragility and how queer white women cannot represent queer women very well because the experiences of queer women of color are not only different, but something white queer women cannot understand because they are not queer women of color. This book was light and enjoyable while touching on heavy and complex topics, the author balanced all of this brilliantly. 

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